On Management and Life

     January was a difficult month on my side. I had every motive to be satisfied with my life. I should have been happy actually. Every day I was waking up with this feeling that nothing can motivate me, life is darkness and nothing works. There was this feeling that I could beat someone but in the same time I didn't have the energy. Most of my time I spend it sleeping and observing my thoughts. In the process, I realized that I need to write down what makes me feel so unhappy and write like an Accounting T, one column with positive traits and one column with negative traits. For each negative trait I tried to come up with a solution. The first to be put under the microscope was my job. I  work with a great team and I have a wonderful team leader. In terms of collaboration, I have a great collaboration with my colleagues. I am also well paid and we have nice benefit package. On the downside of the job, most tasks are iterative, we don't get that many trainings in Ac...

           In the December I received as homework a nice exercise regarding all the masks we wear and how we hide our true self. I was blindfolded I was asked to act towards different people. I mean how I am on a daily basis towards different people in my life. The first one was my mom and then my dad. Somehow, I don't have a certain behavior around them. I just sit like a good girl. I just do what I am told and I listen. The third one was my boyfriend or my ex-boyfriend. I never did any sexy moves. I was still in a good girl mood and perhaps just obeying what I was told. The forth one was my relationship with my friends, where I had the same behavior of just playing along with the music or the rules others make it. The last one is the mask of the world. How I behave in front of the world and I had the vision of the serious schoolgirl that obeys the rules and never rebels. In the end, I just found myself dancing along the line between my true self and all m...