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Perspectives


 Today I received a phone call from an acquaintance of mine, E. In a way she reminded me of a younger version of myself. We are pretty much the same age and we both lived abroad for several years. We both returned to Romania around 2017. After you live and adjust to the civilized and organized West, Romania seems to be the third world country. Basically, everything stinks and nothing works. Shitty life, shitty people. 

She started to complain about how hard life is,  how no one understands her, how difficult it is to work in corporations and in public institutions. In a corporation the schedule doesn't leave to much time to have hobbies, in public institutions one doesn't get money and the tasks are not challenging. Bucharest is one messy city with air pollution, traffic that seems to be from Hell somedays, and uneducated and mean people walk around the city.

I recognized an old version of myself from 2017 when I hated everything and everyone, but especially myself. At that time, I was seeing my old friend A. In one of our discussion she told me that life is not as black as I see. That Bucharest has opportunities in store for me and that I can build my own pink bubble. The way I think will attract my experiences. Of course I dismissed my friend A at the time and stopped talking to her for while. 

It is funny, that years later I had the same response to E complaints. I just tried to talk her over that life is not good or bad. We give meaning to our experiences. If you have a problem, if you can solve it good, if you can't solve it will solve by itself. There is no point of worrying and having scenarios in your mind. The scenarios in our head may only fuel negative thoughts. This was all it took so that I pissed E and I received a harsh and furious feedback. The interesting part part was the message received in the evening that we should no longer speak. 

It was while since I was asking myself why E was still in my life? Somehow, the Creation sent me answer in an unexpected way. 

P.S. Life is about perspectives. One may choose to complaint and focus on those bad 5 minutes where everything and everyone stinks or one may just be grateful for those 5 minutes of shit and make the best experience.




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