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The Holiday


The Pandemic came with a lot of isolation, digital contact and experimenting different daily routines. The most difficult step was to adjust to my own company and learning new things about myself. The summer of 2020 was also the last time were able to travel without COVID-19 tests. My friends living abroad invited me to their house in Munich for a week. M and R are a couple I admire most. They both have goals related to a healthy lifestyle and from the moment I met them they had an unconventional relationship. They know when to spend together and when to spend time apart, when to fight and when to reconcile. 

Before arriving to Munich, we discussed about how happy we will be for spending time together and seeing us after a while. Somehow, I have made a list of all the museums I wanted to visit. I enjoy visiting museums abroad, learning about other culture history, art. Actually, I only managed to visit four museums during that week. That week it was about seeing healthy habits, enjoying meaningful discussions and exploring different sides of myself. We woke up around 9 am. We had coffee and a healthy breakfast. We included a long walk to keep us in good shape and explore the city architecture and nature. I had the first experience of a Thai massage. The memory of that massage is still vivid in my mind. Up until then, I never asked myself if I am stressed and how my body feels it. When the therapist massaged by back, there were moments when part of my body went completely numb. I felt so relaxed after the massage, that I could barely walk. I felt such a release.

It was the holiday where I allowed myself to take it easy, relax and let things flow. We went shopping and it was the first time asking myself if the clothes I was wearing were representing myself. We had nights of rummy, discussions on love and life and plenty of laughs. During the holiday, I asked the Universe the following:

1. Will I ever be able to have healthy habits in my life?

2.Can I let go of things, people and/or memories?

3.Can I start a relationship from friendship?

4.Do I know myself? Do the clothes I am wearing represent myself? 


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