The NLP Journey

Three years ago, my mind was full of thoughts. From the moment I woke up I would think to people in my life, tasks I had to do and somehow the lack of purpose of my life. My personal life was a mess. I took my energy from my work and any social interaction would include cigarettes and booze. The wishful thinking started during my holiday where I saw a different type of normal: healthy lifestyle and relationships. My friend told me something that it is still stuck in my head today: "Stop complaining and dreaming to better days. Start acting. If you want to be healthy in your 60's, now is the moment to start taking better care of yourself". 

My first step was to start exercising for 15 minutes daily and to eat better. Even with this small change, my head was still full of thoughts. At that time I was listening to Mind Architect and other related podcasts to understand my brain and myself better. Those steps were not enough, as I was under the impression that there is more I can do to better my self. I threw the the question in the universe, and I answer was a NLP Practitioner course.  I immediately registered without thinking of a why.

When I think about it now, I had 1000 reasons, here are only a couple:

1. I am 1,69 cm tall and I was weighing 90 kilograms at that time,

2. constant back pains,

3. overthinking;

4. exaggerated emotions (happiness was like an explosion and depression was like diving into Mariana's Trench,  if I got enraged I was like a Dragon spitting fire everywhere);

5. social activities included drinking and smoking;

6. I was attracting the same type of men: unavailable emotional and even physical;

7. I was in burnout;

8. I had no life goal;

9. I was living in the past and I could not see any future, while the present didn't exist;

10. Whatever goal I achieved, I was never happy - I just wanted more and more and more;

11. I was constantly living of fear: fear of death, fear of being abandoned, fear of being intimate with someone etc;

12. I didn't know how to love myself  and how to offer self love to myself;

13. I didn't accept myself and all my negative sides (I couldn't see the positives either);

14. I was attached to people, relationship, things etc; - God forbid one left my life as it was a tragedy;

15. I was looking for external validation - people pleaser;

16. I never got acquainted and stayed with my emotions and understanding why and what are they teaching;

17. I knew what I didn't want, but not what I want which lead to a series of mistakes and bad decisions;

18. I was very animal, I was lead by my primary needs, especially the sexually related ones;

19. I was looking for attraction, chemistry and explosiveness from first date, instead of looking for values, lifestyle and friendship;

20. I just wanted a rebirth: a new me, a healthy me, a happy me, a clear mind and healthy relations.

If you find any of the above in your life, I may only encourage you to take the first step in your journey and find some guidance for a change: a course or a therapist to guide you.