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Soul vs Ego



                It may seem that I ran out of blog titles as this one is pretty similar to the previous one. I went to a class and the first question I asked the teacher were: How do I know if  a decision is made out of soul or ego? 

        The answer seemed so simple and still so complicated: When it is made from soul, you just know is the right answer. When it comes from the Ego or Mind, you just ask yourself. Some sort of "What if I never said that..?" and the mind debates all the possible scenarios. With the soul decision comes peace.".

        In the past days I have been remembering some decisions made a long time. I remember calling a friend to ask if she wanted to hang out, but she replied on the tone of "Why on Earth are you calling me?". I remember continuing the conversation and wishing my friend a great day. After I closed the call, I said to myself that I will never contact her. Years passed and we rekindled our connection. At some point my friend asked me why I don't call her anymore, anytime. I explained to her  She apologized and I forgave the incident. I forgave everything, but I never felt the need to call her again. I would go some time to her phone number thinking if I should call. I mostly texted her and from time to time we hang out.

           This is one of the decision I took with the soul as I never had any question on why, what or how come. There are moments when I miss my friend and all the good times we had and I wish her well and I send her light and health. Most probably, my friend is not the only one who pissed me and I took a drastic decision. 

            While contemplating to these decisions, I was wondering how it would feel if  some lost relationships would rekindle. Is there a way or my soul cut the ties forever?

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