Success

        Nowadays, success can be defined in so many ways. For some, success is money and wealth, for others is time with the loved ones or just more times for a personal life. Now I have the life I dream: I have a job from 8:30 am to 5 pm, I have my UI/UX course in the evening and on Saturday evening. I also have some sort of sports in the evenings on Tuesday and Thursday. My weekends are full of meetings and other cultural events. I life my life to the full. What people don't is the work I've done for this change.

Almost 4 years ago, I was working from 9 am till 10 pm. I was eating junk food. I remember I had a crush on French fries. I was overweight and no social life. I remember waking up daily with back pain and I was terrified of going to work. The two steps from my couch until my desk would be the equivalent on flying from Romania to USA. That is how consuming work would feel. I felt swamped. I made the decision to leave the workplace, so I took the first offer. Before changing my job, I took the decision to pick myself and my welfare every time. It all started with the desire of being healthy and the teachers appeared in my life.

I still remember the week between the jobs. It was one week of sleeping, eating and going to church. That was the maximum energy I had. Everything over that would get me tired as hell. When I started the new job, I stated a couple of rules: I log-in at 9 and I log-out at 18pm. Health and comfort is on first place. I had to recreate my life and connections. I started also working with a personal trainer. I remember I felt like a ball and 10 minutes of workout seemed like of lifetime of pain. Nowadays, one hour of exercise is piece of cake. 

In these four years, I had a lot of weeks filled with failure. I had a lot of weeks experiencing internal conflict regarding different themes like overtime at work, health in relationships, smoking, drinking, overweight, limits and borders. I had people coming and leaving my life and I have experienced anger and other negative emotions. I trialed and tested everything. I have applied methods from NLP, family constellation, yoga, ayurveda, massage, Chinese medicine and sound healing in order to restore my health. Some methods worked, others felt like loosing time. It was all part of a long and painful process, but in the same time very rewarding. 

This comes after I discussed with a friend of mine and she told that she sometime envy me for having friends and activities. I am not sure if she is aware of how much I have invested in this change: time, money, energy. I am not sure if she realizes how much I wanted to feel healthy, to feel good in my skin and my mind.