On Management and Life

          Nowadays, success can be defined in so many ways. For some, success is money and wealth, for others is time with the loved ones or just more times for a personal life. Now I have the life I dream: I have a job from 8:30 am to 5 pm, I have my UI/UX course in the evening and on Saturday evening. I also have some sort of sports in the evenings on Tuesday and Thursday. My weekends are full of meetings and other cultural events. I life my life to the full. What people don't is the work I've done for this change. Almost 4 years ago, I was working from 9 am till 10 pm. I was eating junk food. I remember I had a crush on French fries. I was overweight and no social life. I remember waking up daily with back pain and I was terrified of going to work. The two steps from my couch until my desk would be the equivalent on flying from Romania to USA. That is how consuming work would feel. I felt swamped. I made the decision to leave the workplace, so I took the...

 This weekend was all about gratitude. I have been contemplating and feeling gratitude for everything that happened in my life until now. On Saturday I woke up around 5:30 in order to do a joy and gratitude practice. After I finished my practice, I immediately dressed up and went for a walk. Actually, I had scheduled my manicure appointment. Afterwards, I met a friend for brunch and some vintage shopping. I made some choices this weekend and at some moment I doubted my choices. The people I after the decision was made, they only came into my path to reassure me I made the right decision. Starting with that moment, I remembered that there were times in my life when I felt so upset on people, on God, on Universe. Those moments when I thought everything was against me. Nowadays, I may only feel gratitude for everything that happens. I am grateful for my neighbor who flooded my apartment. If it weren't for her, I would not know my limits and what I am willing to pay for my comfort. I a...

                    It may seem that I ran out of blog titles as this one is pretty similar to the previous one. I went to a class and the first question I asked the teacher were: How do I know if  a decision is made out of soul or ego?           The answer seemed so simple and still so complicated: When it is made from soul, you just know is the right answer. When it comes from the Ego or Mind, you just ask yourself. Some sort of "What if I never said that..?" and the mind debates all the possible scenarios. With the soul decision comes peace.".           In the past days I have been remembering some decisions made a long time. I remember calling a friend to ask if she wanted to hang out, but she replied on the tone of "Why on Earth are you calling me?". I remember continuing the conversation and wishing my friend a great day. After I closed the call, I said to m...

  It is only noon and I received a huge lesson. Since I started the UI UX Design course, my Saturdays look like a sprint. In the morning I try go to the studio to exercise and if I have time I do stuff for myself. If it happens to have several activities up until 14:00, I just try to enjoy all of them. In the pursuit of ticking things on my list, I forgot to enjoy every moment. What happens in those moments? The Universe brings a walking lesson. The door from the studio didn't open. I had to call for help. The roads were full. Everything seemed to be against myself. I called an uber and the driver said one or two things: "My entire life I was in a hurry and I regret it. Time passed and I got old. The Universe doesn't want you to go where you want. Even the door didn't work." Then, it hit me. I  rushed from my hours of relaxing and working on myself for other stuff that weren't for myself. I rescheduled the meeting and I asked the driver to let me to the next s...

 I started the year with a wedding in my extended family. I actually enjoy family gatherings until I feel the social pressure. The question or the apropos regarding when will I get married. The funny part is that I notice this desire stronger from other people than myself. It was a surprise that my mom wanted me to have the marriage experience, even though she was divorced twice. This question adds  to my series of questions: -Why should I get married? Is this an extraordinary experience? Do I need to give and take for a happy relationship? Do I have enough space to grow?  I did a bit of digging inside myself. My idea about myself is that I identified with the wind, a wind on the move all the time. I never considered the times the wind stops. Who doesn't like the summer breeze on a hot day? With this in mind, my definition about marriage is that marriage is cage, entrapment, something that takes your freedom and kills your spirit. On the other hand, marriage was coupled w...

  In the last years, there is a trend of promoting self love. With one google search on self love one either finds a list of activities to encourage self love or a set of questions to ask yourself. The self love goes deeper into us as it is a mix of habits we learnt in childhood, personal beliefs, coping mechanisms with emotions and our vision for us. Self love is also about reeducating yourself and taking hard decisions. Four years ago I realized my lifestyle didn't fit my vision. I decided all I wanted to have better health. My first step was to have a personal trainer who was watching my diet and made me do my 15 minutes exercise per day. It is not that my PT made me as there was rule: if you lie to me, you lie yourself. It was true as she was able to tell what I did by the way I look. The part with food and exercise was just the beginning, as I've read somewhere that when you start working on your your emotions you will loose weight. During the week I was eating healthy, du...

  I have been working on myself through different methods. In the last year I have been trying through sports, food, meditation and journaling. While I was working out, I had experienced a lot of pain and a wide range of emotions from rage to sadness. There is one pain that appeared in the same area over and over again. It was either a stiff neck or just a sore throat. One week I was ok, while the next three I was some sort of sick. In addition, I was feeling an exacerbated anger when hearing my voice. I just couldn't stand it. The questions popped: What is wrong with my voice? Why am I so uncomfortable with my voice? When I start asking myself questions, then I get opportunities to receive my answers. Each month I attended a workshop or some sort of activity that resulted in me with a sore throat, a stiff neck or just a lot of anger on my voice. What the NLP taught me is that staying in the question will bring you answers. Those moments with intense pain and anger are still so viv...